More financial burdens and pressures as concerns my mom. I love her very much but this is so not where I ever expected my life to be. I have enough pressure to take care of myself (which is more difficult than I would like), the added finance of her and that piece of shit job she refuses to leave that doesnt cover even the simplest living is going to be the end of me.
And I cant even run. I want to run sometimes but what would happen to my mom if I did? My sister has a husband and child now and they’re just making ends meet as families often struggle to do. My other sister is off in Lala-land and doesnt contribute financially to the family. I’m on my own, in every aspect. Financially, emotionally, intimately…should I scream now or just fling myself into traffic. Real life sucks so damn hard sometimes.