I started a fic a while back, an AU (of course). I wrote like 20 pages and lost them, thinking I threw them out in one of my mass cleaning culls. This afternoon, I found them. The joy I felt, I cant even describe. The joy turned to heartache when I realized the beginning of the story was not on my hard drive or my flash drive where I kept all my old fics.
I held back the tears, straightened myself up, and realized I email everything to myself so I can edit,complete, etc. So I went to my gmail, knew it had to be there. I scrolled and opened and closed and repeated and tried not to get too frustrated, and I finally found it. Emailed from my gmail to my Yahoo in May 2012…and I was actually smart enough to title the email with the name of the story (Providence). Sometimes being anal is awesome!
I dont know if I will complete this story, its case fic and has a hell of a triggering subject matter, but just knowing its there, and I could if I wanted, and all is not lost…it just made today even better.